Death?

sophiesuxblood — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 17:11:12 +0000

Death is a touchy subject. Which means different things to all of us. I recently started to think about it when Jimmy ”The Rev” Sullivan died on the 28th December. One of the world’s best drummers, in an amazing band – Avenged sevenfold. It made me think about all the ones I’ve lost, whom I shall never see again, until I die. But then it makes you think, why? Seen as Jimmy was twenty-eight years of age and the media claims it was natural causes. When my uncle died he was twenty-two with a child inside his fiance’s stomach. That’s not a way to go. I was six years old, I didn’t know how to cope properly, though death wasn’t new to me. I couldn’t pull it all together. It was like losing a father, yes I already have one, but my uncle was more of a father to me than my father ever could be. So a part of me got killed, it was like a huge hole was just burning in my chest, I was devastated and just didn’t think this would happen, at him being so young. Yes I was six, but I had a mind, and I started asking questions which never got answered until now. Now, I still don’t even know the details. Nobody likes to answer them. Especially my mother, she had lost her baby brother, and my Nan, she wouldn’t talk to anyone for weeks, and I mean weeks. At the funeral we were all there and I read out my letter to him, everyone was crying so hard to even listen to what I was saying. Though my Nan heard every word and held my hand through it all. Even now, I think of him every day and will never stop. When I was going to do my holy communion I said to my mother ”I wish Kevin was here” and my mother turned around and said ”He is, even though you can’t see him, he’s here, in this room looking over you.” and that’s stayed with me ever since that day. I believe he, and all my other loved ones, are always going to be looking over us, until the day we die. It’s the same with Jimmy, he’ll be making music in heaven and looking over all his fans, and band members. R.I.P. Jimmy, the world’s lost an incredible drummer, and an amazing human being.

Suicide?

sophiesuxblood — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 22:01:06 +0000

This is a bit rough to start off with, but I’d like to talk about suicide, and what would drive people to it. I, myself have thought about it, but my friends were giving me these reasons not to and putting me on the right track basically. It’s a reckless thing to even think about, but I did, and so have many others. I still value it as an option now if I’m honest. I shouldn’t be selfish like that, but I am, people don’t understand. You try to make them understand, but it’s hard and in the end whatever you say doesn’t matter, because they’ll end up saying the same thing, ”don’t do it” ”you’ve got your life ahead of you” but those people haven’t been what you’ve been through, they haven’t seen what you’ve seen and felt what you’ve felt. So it’s different for them, because they start to panic and just don’t take in what you’re saying, or listen hard when your telling them how you feel. I feel that if things are truly bad, you should consider it. But if you can live with it, and seek help from friends/family, then don’t think about that just yet, it’s a way out for some people. A chance to get away from everything that’s bad in life. You should go through every option first, every possible way of making things better, then consider it, otherwise, you’d end up making a big mistake when there’s something that can be done to fix it. Basically, that is my opinion. You may agree, and may disagree, but that is my view and I won’t change it. I’m happy to hear other people’s opinions, but that’s mine and I don’t want to get criticised for what I think.

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